Redeem now - Pamela Anderson says her dad once "drowned" a bag full of kittens in front of her.
- Everything blurred, like it was happening in slow motion," Anderson wrote.
- "I felt like I died that night, too." added Anderson, who is a vegan and animal-rights activist.
In her memoir "Love, Pamela," Pamela Anderson detailed the various forms of abuse she witnessed and experienced as a child growing up on Vancouver Island in Canada.
She wrote that her father Barry Anderson was an alcoholic who she said was physically and emotionally abusive toward her mother Carol Anderson.
The former "Playboy" model admitted that she was rebellious even as a child, and often faced harsh punishments for disobeying orders.
She wrote that one night while her parents were out on a date, she took the kittens that her cat Momsy had just given birth to and brought them inside the house — even though she knew she was defying a direct order not to.
When her father came home unexpectedly and caught her "redhanded," Anderson wrote, "He was so angry, he threw down his jacket, grabbed a paper bag, stuffed all of the kittens inside, and stumbled down the steps to the beach with them."
"I followed in a trance — I could hear the kittens' muffled cries. Everything blurred, like it was happening in slow motion," Anderson continued. "My dad walked into the ocean and held the bag underwater. He drowned them in front of me. I felt like I died that night, too."
In a poem that followed the story, Anderson wrote that, after witnessing the animals' deaths, she sought "refuge" at a neighbor's house.
In addition to her career in entertainment, Anderson is a vegan and longtime animal-rights activist.
In "Love, Pamela," she explained that her lifestyle change happened during her childhood when she saw a deer carcass Barry had hunted and eventually convinced him never to go hunting again.
"Love, Pamela," is available now.
Anyone affected by abuse and in need of support can contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline (1-800-799-7233). Advocates are available 24/7 and can also be reached via live chat on thehotline.org or by texting "START" to 88788 or "LOVEIS" to 22522.
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